I Don 't See Dead People

I almost have panic attacks when those people who get in touch with dead relatives give their loved ones messages from them.  I hope like hell that is not true because I've done some things I really hope my father and grandmother didn't see and don't know about.  I'll have some 'splainin' to do if there is a way we meet again in the afterlife.  Some of that stuff even embarrasses me now when I think about it, so I can just imagine how Daddy would react!  Most of it was lots of fun but nothing I want observed.  Wonder how that works if it actually does happen?  I like to think that parts can be censored, but I mostly choose to believe they have no clue what I've done.